Tuesday, December 4, 2012

This would explain the "heart attack" I felt during Trial # 1...

"When we ingest marijuana, the heart swells through capillary enhancement and is fueled more by more fully oxygenated blood, while, at the same time, its contractions and expansions are greater, allowing for stronger pumping action to the rest of the body" (p. 37, The Benefits of Marijuana: Physical, Psychological, & Spiritual, by Joan Bello).

I would suggest having a look at this link. Great, great info.

Am I becoming a marijuana advocate? Hah! Who knew. Here are some more quotes I found interesting.

"The marijuana experience itself does not miraculously cure. Instead, it allows the body a respite from the tensions of imbalance, while exposing the mental confusion of the mind. The marijuana experience of balance becomes a learned and, over time, somewhat permanent response as the essential human tendency to homeostasis is reawakened and the natural healing process restored" (p. 49).

"In a Costa Rican study, it was found that chronic marijuana smokers who also smoked cigarettes were less likely to develop cancer than cigarette smokers who didn’t use marijuana. Since marijuana (smoking, as well as ingestion by other methods) dilates the alveoli, toxins are more easily eliminated with cannabis use regardless of its method of application. Nicotine, on the other hand, constricts the alveoli, so it is likely that the use of cannabis neutralizes, or even overwhelms the constriction, by its own tendency to dilation ...As an aid for all psychosomatic disease, marijuana can benefit the participant, generally because of its health-restoring effects... The fear of marijuana... stems from its limitless potential for treating illness, in that both the pharmaceutical industry and the medical monopoly would lose billions of dollars if marijuana became the non-drug of choice" (p. 61).

"Marijuana can act as the loosening agent, so that whatever has been banned from consciousness may come cascading forth. To uncover our deceptions without our usual rationalizations can be unpleasant, an experience that has turned many psychologically fragile individuals away from marijuana despite its therapeutic catharsis" (p. 50).


"Regardless of the model used, marijuana resolves conflict by de-emphasizing extreme aggressiveness and stroking the receptive sides of human nature. This unification or balance, however, may be responsible for changes in goals and values. It Is the healthy balancing nature of marijuana that is most beneficial to the individual and most threatening to modern society" (p. 51).


Saturday, December 1, 2012

Marijuana As A De-Stressor?

As previously posted, the few marijuana trials I did were not effective in terms of helping with my hair-pulling. I still felt urges to pull even while I was high, and this was disappointing.

On a related note, I had an episode last night. I never pull my brows, and now I have to draw in most of my left one. It's ridiculous. I've never pulled my brows before and this is getting worse and worse.

As a desperate attempt to stop myself, I smoked half a joint (I had it lying around for a while from previous trials) in hopes of alleviating the symptoms.

Surprisingly, it helped tremendously. I'm beginning to wonder if weed only helps while you feel stressed. When I smoked it without the "need" but for trial reasons, it didn't help, but when I tried it while under extreme stress, it relieved my symptoms amazingly.

I was sitting watching TV, and although I was day dreaming and starring into nothing really, this incredible sense of calm fell over me. I felt amazing, and relaxed. I felt good.

Also note, however, that I got this weed from a different dealer than from previous trials. I am in the midst of finding out what strain this particular marijuana was, because that might have made the difference.

Indica strains are the ones used to medically treat anxiety. If this is the strain I smoked last night, then perhaps I was wrong all along. Maybe it helps, but it depends on the type/quality of the weed.

I'll keep you posted.